THE PRINCESS IS AT IT AGAIN!

Friday, August 31, 2012

Potted or Pottered?

OH YES, TONIGHT!

Excited na koooooo!!!! #giddyasakid
See you there, Potter fans!

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Last night was somehow a heart~~breaking~~aching night. It just seemed we did not see eye-to-eye. I was dismissive, he was agit and exasperated. Night was capped in tears but with goodnights, sorrys and I love yous.

I woke up today remembering a daily devotional book that has not been touched for quite some time. Mabasa nga. And yes, the reading for the day was apt with the circumstances. Hay, Lord, kakaloka ka tumiming. Here is the summarized version of it.

AUGUST 29: COMBATING DEFENSIVENESS

Defensiveness stops the flow of communication in a relationship. Defensiveness indicates that your self-esteem has been attacked. The person who made a cutting comment is not the enemy. Rather, the message he/she spoke is. Focus on the right enemy and you can turn your negative feelings into positive actions.

Lord God, when I feel defensive, please help me to consider the message objectively. If it is true, let me be willing to take steps to make a positive change. If it is not true, help me not to respond angrily but to trust that you will give me the right words to say. Thank you, Lord. Amen.

From Gary Chapman's The One Year Love Language Minute Devotional

And yes, despite the occasional defensiveness, I still love you with all my heart.

Photo was taken from http://rosiemolinary.com/.

Monday, July 16, 2012

Reason, Season and Lifetime

Relate, sooooobrang relate.

Sorry for just being a reason or a season to you. When we started what we had, we both wished we were in it for a lifetime, but I guess it's not God's plan for both of us.

We were there for the reasons each of us need to be. And as was said, the season eventually ended.

Thank you. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Self-processing: Forgiveness Is Freedom

I am just processing myself. Aloud. Please indulge.

Turbulent times for me. Much confusion, stress, hurt, disappointment, heartache and hopelessness. But I know things will get better. Eventually. In HIS time. (Hopefully soon though, Lord.)

In this very moment that I feel such a kontrabida in (mostly) everyone's eyes, here is what God wanted me to know...

ALTHOUGH FORGIVENESS IS VERY HARD, IT IS NECESSARY.

Holding onto anger and old hurts hardens your heart and hurts only you. Ask for help in letting go of the anger. Ask to see the situation through the eyes of compassion. Allow yourself to feel the lightness of forgiveness.

I'm thinking sino ba dapat kong patawarin.

Then it hit me.

Dapat kong UNANG patawarin ang sarili ko. I have to forgive myself first to be able to forgive others. I cannot give what I do not have. Forgiveness to self translates to forgiveness to others. God is right in saying mahirap magpatawad. Lalo na yung sa tingin natin hindi deserving ng kapatawaran.

I feel that. I feel I don't deserve forgiveness. Heck, I feel I don't even deserve forgiveness from myself. Then God sends me this. Naman talaga, Lord!

Di ko pa rin alam. Inner battle. Internal conflict. But I know I'll emerge victorious. Whatever I will decide, it has been thought through. No shooting down. Please.

To all the people I have hurt, especially those whom I have hurt DEEPLY, I am sorry. Huli na siguro or baka wala nang effect, but still, I AM TRULY SORRY. I hope you find it in your hearts, no matter how small the flicker of compassion for me is, to forgive me.

To myself, I forgive you. Wag ka lang madalas na gaga or tanga baka madala akong patawarin ka. Pero di naman kita kaya tiisin, eventually mapapatawad din kita. Ulit. And remember dear self, I love you very much.

To the people who have hurt me, I free you. I forgive you. Sincerely.

PS. Sa mga nakibasa at nakabasa nitong self-processing ko, please pray for me. Please.

(Freedom photo by Amit Richard)

Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

Bathing to the Rhythm

Oh yes yes yes! We're talking bathing! Hahaha!

Last January 2, I just thought of lugging my iPod and speakers inside the shower room and bathing to the music, see how relaxing that'll be and hell yeah, I wanna do it again! Everyday! If I have time that is! Hahahaha!

Have you tried this? Ahhhhmaaaazing talaga!!!!

Going back, since there was no relaxing, soothing playlist on my iPod, I had to result to Genius. I made a Genius playlist with Love Moves In Mysterious Ways, and this is what I got...

I shampooed to Love Moves In Mysterious Ways by Julia Fordham.
I hair-conditioned to Beauty and Madness by Fra Lippo Lippi.
I soaped to Freestyle's Before I Let You Go.
I shower-creamed to EBTG's I Didn't Know I Was Looking For Love.
I washed my face to A Little Bit by MYMP.
And I rinsed and towelled to Ewan by Imago and Ulan by Rivermaya.

Ah-ma-zing talaga! I massaged my scalp, soaped, rinse, towelled and tapped my feet to the beat! I was even humming and turning!!! Hahahaha!

Basta, hay naku, TRY IT!!!!!

This was my longest and best bath ever! Will definitely do this again and again and again!

Anuba, ang giddy ko na dito! TRY NYO NA! =D

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Starting The Year Right

I got two greeeeeat books this holiday season. They look very promising, PROMISE! *haha*

1. THE SHACK by Wm. Paul Young

Thank you to my YDWTL-42 anak, Joon, for this inspirational book. I've been hearing raves about this book. Thank you. As part of the Missy Project, I also gave a copy to Nii (Edison).

2. THE ONE-YEAR LOVE LANGUAGE MINUTE DEVOTIONAL by Gary Chapman (signature series)