Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Just 26 Questions

Just got this from Gabbie in Friendster Bulletins... hahaha! Not sure why I wanted to answer this... I'm really not the survey type... heeheehee...

26 of the MOST Spontaneous Questions Ever

1. What do you want for your birthday?
===> hmmmm... not sure... can't think of anything sensible right now... maybe the pink and the black Gola ballet shoes.... or a big big big big stuffed toy para i-huuuuuuuug!!!! =D

2. Who will be your next kiss?
===> may ganito? hahaha! i don't know... kayo alam nyo? =P

3. When was the last time you went to the mall?
===> is Pure Gold Clark a mall??? hahaha! I guess not! Hmmmm... OMG! antagal na yata... ay hindi pala, I always go to Galle on the way home... dun pala ako sinusundo! Hahaha! How can I forget! Gosh! So kagabi yun... hehehe...

4. Are you wearing socks right now?
===> Nope.

5. How did you spend your summer?
===> Work! Darn! Twice lang yata ako nag-swimming... this was the only summer na hindi ako negrita! and I hate it! I love water! I love the sun! I love summer! And yet I spent it indoors... nyar!

6. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?
===> Sadly no... Anyone up for Ratatouille???? Marky??? 29ers??? Sige na! **grinning really really widely**

7. What was the last thing you had to drink?
===> Water. Just now.

8. What are you wearing right now?
===> Black Blouse. Tan pinstripe pants. Bronze pumps with dark brown ribbon. Brown and tan pearl necklace and bracelet. Gold earrings. Watch. Yan lahat ng makikita sa labas. Hahaha...

9. What was your last purchase?
===> Cookies for the office. =D

10.What was the last food you ate?
===> Snowy rice crisps. Still eating actually.

11. Who would be the person you would call if you were up in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep?
===> Probably not call, just text. Jay or Leo. Hahaha! Sure gising pa sila! =P

12. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
===> Yeah. Suede pants. Bronze. Actually it looks more like gold! Hahaha!

13. Do you have a pet?
===> Yeah. 4 dogs. 2 snakes. Madaming lovebirds. Maraming fish. Zoo na ata house namin eh... Hahaha!

14. What made you laugh in the last 5 days?
===> maaaaaany things! =D

15. If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
===> Beach. Calm waters. Whispering wind. White sand. Sun partly covered by fluffs of clouds. Me either in the water, basking on a tan bed or having a massage by the shore. Pwedeng alone or with somebody. Waaaaaaa! Na-imagine ko talaga sya! Swimming na tayo!

16. What is the last thing you purchased online?
===> Songsheet.

17. One thing you hate about yourself?
===> Parang wala. I've learned to accept what I have and who I really am. So pag ayaw ng ibang tao, eh di wag. Madali akong kausap. I'm sure Leo's thinking /ba-atch tone na naman! Hahaha! =D

18. What's your favourite soup?
===> Anything with seafood or bacon. Hahaha! I'd rather have creamy soups rather than the watery ones.

19. Do you miss anyone?
===> OH YEAH! And they know it. I tell people when I miss them. For me that's not something to hide.

20. What are your plans for the day?
===> Aside from accomplishing my gazillion tasks, i'd like to get a haircut, a foot spa and a mani-pedi. =D

21. Last person you msg'd?
===> Jay. Goodnight. =D

22. Ever went to camp?
===> Yeah. Or something like that. Summer workshops mostly.

23. Are you a good student in school?
===> Yeah. Matinong pasaway. Hahaha!

24. What do you know about the (your) future?
===> Nothing. But I wish sooooo many things about it.

25. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?
===> Yep. Issey Miyake. The blue one.

26. Where is your best friend right now?
===> Sino ba? One's at work na kanina pa. One's probably in school already. One's about to be late again. Hahaha!

Finished at 743am.

Hahaha! Until now I'm not sure why I answered this. Gusto nyo ding sagutin? Trip lang. Go! =D

Monday, July 23, 2007

Rollercoaster

No, not really... not as much big loops, high rises and deep dives... But a mix of those in an insane moderation...

Huh? Ang gulo ba? Magulo talaga...

Just two forwarded text messages which can summarize how I feel now, just two...

Sometimes you need to be deaf for the sake of somebody. You need to be insensitive to lessen the pain. You need to smile to be strong for others. And sometimes you just need to stop because you're tired of everything.

Even superheroes get tired. I'm tired now. My body's tired. My mind's tired. That's ok, I can manage. But my heart's tired too. Time to stop. Time to reevaluate. Time to give it it's much needed rest. I'm tired, unusually tired. Tama na muna.

Cherish the people who know you and understand you completely, those who always get how you feel and fully accept who you are. Because in the event that you lose yourself, they will be the ones who'll know how to find you.

Yeah, Jay, I also like this quote. Sooooobrang can relate.

Sometimes I just want to lose myself just to know who these people are. Para alam mo kung sino ang tunay na nagmamahal sa yo... para alam mo kung sino ang tunay na nagpapahalaga sa yo...

I'm kinda lost now. Still trying to find my way back. Glad that there are people who help me trace my bread crumbs.

Biiiiig hug. >:D<

Friday, July 20, 2007

Sabaw-ness With Benefits

Darn! I'm soooooooo sleepy today! Mag-ktv ba naman kagabi eh and mag-paste ng pics for the gallery til 230am! No wonder! Hahaha!Ü

And look how timely this is...

Sure, things are not going smoothly now, but chaos offers a lot of inspiration.

In order to persevere during this potentially tumultuous day, you are going to have to take a bit of a 'so what?' attitude to all the goings-on. Sure, things are not running smoothly, but do you really want them to? How boring would your life be if everything happened on schedule and according to plan? You have to realize that conflict and confusion are great places to find ideas and inspiration. Don't let obstacles get you down. Let them inspire you!


Bottom line: It's ok to be sabaw today. It'll pay off.

Huh? Labo! Haha! But what the heck, how easy can that be? Gosh! =D

Monday, July 16, 2007

I Am Not To Be Bargained

You're no bargain-basement friend! Separate yourself from people who don't get it.

You know your own worth, but today it might feel as though no one else does. If you're feeling neglected, overlooked or just taken for granted, take note of the friends who are treating you that way. You're no bargain-basement friend, and if you're being made to feel that way, it's time to move on. Consider a trial separation from the negative people in your life, and find out what life would be like if you didn't have to deal with their self-obsessed melodrama.


Note to self: You're no bargain-basement friend, and if you're being made to feel that way, it's time to move on. Hay naku, Reich, repeat that a million times!

Note to friends: I have always been like this. You know me. All of me. If I'm not the friend you want, help me, let me go. For those who still want to keep me, aaaaawwwwww love nyo talaga ako!ÜÜÜ Syemps, love ko din kayo! =* Huuuuuuuug!!!!!!Ü

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Blog-In Question

Do you think I'm inlove? Or just majorly infatuated?

Darn! Even I can't tell!

**with my usual tone** Cgeeeee!ÜÜÜ

PS. Sa mga sasagot walang name-dropping please! Pahamak! Haha!Ü

Someone Like You

Hay keso na naman 'to! Anuba! Lech!


Someone Like You from Jekyll and Hyde
I peer through windows
Watch life go by
Dream of tomorrow
And wonder "why"?
The past is holding me
Keeping life at bay
I wander lost in yesterday
Wanting to fly --
But scared to try
But if someone like you
Found someone like me
Then suddenly
Nothing would ever be the same!
My heart would take wing
And I'd feel so alive --
IF SOMEONE LIKE YOU FOUND ME!
So many secrets
I've longed to share!
All I have needed
Is someone there
To help me see a world
I've never seen before
A love to open every door
To set me free
So I can soar
If someone like you
Found someone like me
Then suddenly
Nothing would ever be the same!
There'd be a new way to live
A new life to love
IF SOMEONE LIKE YOU FOUND ME!
Oh, if someone like you
Found someone like me
Then suddenly
Nothing would ever be the same!
My heart would take wing
And I'd feel so alive --
IF SOMEONE LIKE YOU LOVED ME!
Loved me!
Loved me!

Hear it here

Aaaaawwwwwww... **kilig moment muna ako**
Sige, Reich, emo pa!Ü Lech talaga 'to! Hahaha!ÜÜÜ


B.I.M.K. Forever

Read this. Thanks Lala for sending this. You're an angel.Ü

A friend of mine opened his wife's underwear drawer and picked up a silk paper wrapped package: 'This', he said, 'isn't any ordinary package.'

He unwrapped the box and stared at both the silk paper and the box. 'She got this the first time we went to New York , 8 or 9 years ago. She has never put it on and was saving it for a special occasion. Well, I guess this is it.'

He got near the bed and placed the gift box next to the other clothes he was taking to the funeral house.

His wife had just died. He turned to me and said, 'Never save something for a special occasion. Every day in your life is a special occasion.'

I still think those words changed my life.

Now I read more and clean less. I sit on the porch without worrying about anything. I spend more time with my family and less at work. I understand that life should be a source of experience to be lived up to, not survived through. I no longer keep anything. I use crystal glasses every day. I'll wear new clothes to go to the supermarket, if I feel like it. I don't save my special perfume for special occasions, I use it whenever I want to.

The words 'Someday...' and 'One Day...' are fading away from my dictionary. If it's worth seeing, listening or doing, I want to see, listen or do it now.

I don't know what my friend's wife would have done if she knew she wouldn't be there the next morning. This nobody can tell. I think she might have called her relatives and closest friends. She might call old friends to make peace over past quarrels. I'd like to think she would go out for Chinese, her favorite food.

It's these small things that I would regret not doing, if I knew my time had come. I would regret it, because I would no longer see the friends I would meet, letters that I wanted to write.. 'One of these days'. I would regret and feel sad, because I didn't say to my brother and sisters, son and daughters, not enough times at least, how much I love them. Now, I try not to delay, postpone or keep anything that could bring laughter and joy into our lives. And on each morning, I say to myself that this could be a special day. Each day, each hour, each minute, is special. If you got this, it's because someone cares for you and because, probably, there's someone you care about.

Share this to others. Don't say to yourself that you will send it 'One of these days' , remember that 'One day' is far away... or may never come.


Parang naluha-luha pa ko dito.Ü

So now that I've shared this with you. Ulitin ko lang... love kita. Yep, ikaw. Wala nang iba. BIMK forever.Ü I might not be able to say it tomorrow so I better tell you now.

Thanks talaga, dudes and dudettes, for making my life soooo darn great to live!Ü Kahit minsan pasaway kayo. Haha!Ü

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Keso 'To, Dude!

This is one of the very few (yeah right!) times I get cheesily keso-ey pa-(hopeless)romantic.. hahaha!Ü

Girl facts:

When you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back and smile.

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you,
she wants you to hold her hand.

When she wants a hug,
she will just stand there.

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it even when you see each other 3 years later.

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games.

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl says she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that.

When a girl is mean to you after a break-up,
she wants you back, but she's scared she'll get hurt

and she'll realize you're gone forever.


Guy Facts:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you.

When a guy is quiet,
he's listening to you.

When a guy is not arguing,
he realizes he's wrong.

When a guy says, "I'm fine." after a few minutes,
he means it.

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you care about him and wonders if you really do.

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world.

When a guy calls/texts/comments you everyday,
he is in love.

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it.

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you 'til your done.

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else.


This is very true...


IS IT? Hahaha! Alam ko yung sa girl oo, eh yung sa guy??? Patay tayo dyan!ÜÜÜ


I'm Scared To Try

Read this first. **background music: Someone Like You'** Jeez! Raaar!Ü

Listen to your internal voice, and don't be afraid to share what you're feeling. There is a disconnect between what you think and what you're saying right now -- why? You should listen to your internal voice and respect it. Don't be afraid to share your true feelings with the world. If you feel the need to put your raw thoughts into a filter, then you have to admit that they're not a true representation of your feelings -- and isn't that just a fancy way of saying that they're untrue? Be truthful and unedited today. Turn off your filters and just talk!

Anuba! Ayoko naaaaaaaaaa! Hahaha!Ü As AJ said last night, tulak ng bibig kab(a)g ng dibdib! Hahaha! Is fate pushing things? Wag naman! Not fun! Scaaaaared! Darn, Reich, darn! Haha!Ü

Haaaaaaaaay.... Any input Reens?Ü

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

More Risks

My horoscope for the day:

The Bottom Line

Keep walking on the wild side a bit more today, and you'll see that it can pay off. Lately you've been taking a lot more risks -- and have you noticed how much they've been starting to pay off? Keep walking on wild side a bit more today, and you definitely will. The old saying 'Nothing ventured, nothing gained' is truer than ever in your life, so venture forth and explore the unknown today. Be a little bit more open with your feelings, and be a little bit more open with your mind. Do something new just for the sake of experiencing it for the first time.


Hmmmmm.... Lately you've been taking a lot more risks -- have I? Really? Eh kung yung risk kaya na yun... yung kinatatakutan kong risk na yun... yun kaya gawin ko? Weeeeh! Wag na lang! Ma-hurt pa ako... CHOS!Ü

Nothing ventured, nothing gained???? Hmmmmm... **BIG BIG mental note: Niño's text!** Darn! Hahaha!Ü Anu nga? Weh, wag na nga lang... Lech, torpe! Pa-girl! Hahaha!Ü


Hay naku, so what?!?!?! Girl naman talaga ako. Sya na lang! Hehe.Ü

Monday, July 09, 2007

Toink!

BFT Niño sent me a text message. Read and be awakened! Hahaha!Ü

Some words were capitalized for emphatic purposes.Ü Heehee..

When your feelings get strong for someone, it's always WISE to stop for a while and give your heart a time to breathe... a time to use your mind, to weigh the situation based on reason NOT on emotion. Because the saddest thing that can happen is when one falls inlove while the other wants nothing more than friendship. LOVE can sometimes be MAGIC, but magic can sometimes be an ILLUSION.

Toink! Huwaaaaw! Sapol!

CP Jay even said, bato-bato sa langit tamaan umamin! Bwiset! Hahaha!Ü
BFT!!! Thanks! Grabeh! Nagising talaga ako dito! Hahaha!Ü


Grrrrrand Weekend

Saturday was such a blast. And I have 3 reasons for it!

1. It was a super girlie weekend. I was in gown! And so were the other (biologically) girls. Haha!Ü
2. Nice to sing in a wedding again. Wagi pa rin ang tunog ng DC. **blush**
3. Good food, great company. O ha?Ü

This was such a grand weekend. Thank God for this!

Sorry, nothing much to say. Grabe. Overwhelmed pa rin ako! Hahaha!Ü Darn!Ü

Basta... LOVE YOU, DC!Ü Aminin nyo, masaya talaga 'to! Hahaha!ÜÜÜ


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Thursday, July 05, 2007

More Than Just A Pretty Face

Tsk tsk tsk...

I thought you were more than just a pretty face. I might have thought wrong. =(

Why are you suddenly cold? Why are we suddenly not superfriends? Affected by the stories that are going around? Only you can answer these.

Haaaaay, sayang naman. I still believe and I still want to believe that there's more to you than that. I don't want to be disappointed. Sana you'll prove me soooo wrong.

When you need me, you know how to holler for me. You know I'm here for you. And yeah, I need you, I do.


Forgiveness

Nabilib lang ako dito.

A conversation (actually, more like processing) between the Headmaster and a Grade Schooler.

HM: After what you've done, do you think you deserve forgivess?
GS: No.
HM: Exactly!
HM continues: Forgiveness is a gift. Be thankful when somebody awards you forgivess, whether you deserve it or not.

Leo's right. Parang si Dumbledore nga noh.
Omniscient.
Galeng.

There's still this ang-lupet-no'n-pare smile on my face. Hehehe.Ü


Wednesday, July 04, 2007

Missing This

Wow! **euphoric**

How many months have I missed??? Ngayon lang ulit ako magblo-blog!

Many things transpired over the months that I was gone. Sorry, I wasn't able to share with you all my joys and tears. Ang dami nun... as in suuuuuuper dami.

I am content with where I am now. I am happier. I am more loved. I am more special. I am better.

I only have pictures to share. These pictures will say so much of my life now. The events that happened -- the life-changing ones... the life-sustaining ones. The people I interacted with -- the core-shaking ones, the worth-living-life-with ones. Ang dami... as in suuuuuuper dami.

I missed blogging. AS IN. I wasn't able to do so because I have so much work, I have so many things that consume my time and energy, I averted my focus on so many other things.

It is just now while composing this that I realize how MUCH I really missed doing this. Kahit na simpleng kwento lang ok na. Kahit na sa computer ko lang kinekwento, I know I'm sharing my life with you, with all of you. And mahilig ako magkwento, di ba? How can I forget that blogging is my way of sharing stories with you? If you can only see me now, there's this mix of unbelief, relief and fulfillment on my face. Umiiling ako, na napapangiti, na napapabuntung-hininga nang malalim... I guess that's good... I believe that's ok.

Grabe... Grabe...

I SOOOOO MISS THIS. Glad I'm back. No promises of daily entries. No promises of lengthy ones. I'm just glad I'm back.

Oh yeah, the pictures? Here! Check them out!Ü
http://rachelledevera.multiply.com/photos